Happy Easter!
Hello all you out there in the e-world! It's been a while since I've made a real post... I mean, not to discredit the ones I've been posting about the "40 Days of Purpose" study I've been doing, but those weren't the normal life-inspired entries that I usually write. I don't know that anyone actually still reads this considering how irregular my entries are, but whether or not someone stumbles upon my writings, I've found that its best for me to write it anyway....

Hey... its my 20th Easter! And my 2nd year in a row, I've been away from home during Easter. Its kinda weird not to be around family or even good Christian friends over the Easter holiday... for some reason its just not the same. Last year, I went to northern Virginia with my lovely roommate Lindsay, but she's not quite the chruch-goer and so I didn't attend either (although, I can't say that I was much of a church-goer last spring either). But I still felt an emptiness for not spending this holiday with my family (biological or spiritual). This year, I am in Cincinnati, Ohio and since it was a long weekend, having Good Friday off from work and all, a good number of co-ops went camping in southern Kentucky... basically everyone else went to be with family... which left me and my roommate Trisha to hang out in Cincinnati by ourselves... Trisha is an AWESOME roommate! I'm so glad I've met her and I'll probably hang out with her a lot when she gets back to Tech next year. BUT, she's not a morning person like me and also isn't much of a church-goer... so I went to church on my own this morning... then spent most of the rest of the day on my own as well, including going to see the Passion again.

I definitely feel like I did more to focus on the spiritual aspects of Easter this year than last, but there's still that whole aspect of 'family' missing. I don't get homesick very easily... but I hope that next Easter I can spend it with my family. I miss getting to see my church's Easter pageant and my brother playing his Trumpet for Easter sunday worship services.

Anyway, I'm going to move on away from the Easter talk to other rants. This entry is beginning to sound depressing.... but PLEASE don't let that lead you to believe that I am depressed, because I am most DEFINITELY FARRRRRRRRR from being depressed or sad... I'm one of the happiest people I know. But a girl's got to have her moments, eh? Besides I've had a lot of time alone to think this weekend.

I miss being at Tech to do stuff like go to symphony band and pep band and to hang out with my friends... Heck, I miss Dietrick too! However, being here in Cincy has actually grown on me a LOT more than I had ever expected it to. I really like coming home from work and not having to think about it again until the next day. I like that I'm responsible for me... I can stay up late but I have to make sure that I get sufficient sleep to be a good little GE worker the next day. I really like a lot of the co-ops... some get on my nerves for being so wrapped up in drinking all the time, but other than that they're good people and fun to hang out with regardless. However, I miss not having someone I'm really close to. It seems like most everyone here has one other person they've latched onto and are close to, but I'm kinda an outsider... I'm friends with everyone, just don't have my one person to latch onto.... I miss having deep, REAL conversations, not just small talk... "so did you have a nice day?"

A lot of these things I miss aren't just cause I'm out here in Cincy... I've noticed that I was lacking these more recently back at Tech at well... I really do miss having deep, thoughtful conversations... partially my fault because I've not put the effort keeping myself informed. I miss having someone I'm really close to. For example, two of my closest friends from freshman year seemed more distant this fall... one because he found a 'romantic interest' and the other I'm not quite sure why... but they were more distant... maybe I was too, I'm not sure. But I miss having those close friends that I feel comfortable talking to about just about anything. I'm tired of being the cute little sister all the time... I've spent my whole life being that... I mean, there's nothing wrong with being just good friends with all these guys, but I've kinda reached the point where I want to try out this whole 'dating' thing.... I don't feel in a rush to get married by any means... that's just weird. I know that a lot of my friends are getting married/engaged... but, I dunno... maybe I've been to 'prude' (as Jay puts it) my whole life and I've shut myself out from having these opportunities... but I doubt it. I'm not ugly, but I'm not "HOT" either. I'm aware of that, but I am me and no one else is ever going to be that... I mean its not like I think I need some guy to date in order to have my life fulfilled, but I think that it would be something I should try out. That's the point of dating right... to kinda 'test drive' guys to find the right one to spend your life with. Maybe they're not the "perfect guy" and maybe they're not exactly the type of person you were looking to date, but you never know what might surprise you if you just give it a try.

Anyway, I don't know where I'm going with all of this... nowhere really... just ramblings I suppose. I guess I better call it a night and be responsible for myself so I won't just be a potato in front of a computer tomorrow! :) Happy Easter ya'll!